You'll probably notice the time of this post. Yes, it truly is 2:44am right now. I woke up around 2am because my baby woke up. So after I comforted him back to sleep, I grabbed my phone that when I was first went to bed, was completed dead. I saw the light blinking so I went to check what was the source. And there it was, an email from the Demon. I had to look several times to make sure I was seeing it correctly, after all it is 2am. My eyes were not deceiving me, it was an email, a long one at that, from him.
In the email he goes on and on about how sorry he was for putting me through this and how he messes everything up, and how he is slowly killing himself drinking and doing drugs. He also said that all his kids hate him and don't want to see him (I wonder why). Oh and now its four kids, not the three, including my son, I knew about. And that I should do what I need regarding child support. He basically said goodbye to us as he ended it with tell my son I love him and I love you and your family too.
Now, excuse my french, but bullshit. You don't get yet another dramatic exit out this damn bitch anymore and so I called him out on it. You see, when I search his Facebook page to see if he is still where I think he is (for child support purposes which I don't get but am hoping that one day I will), he seems happiily ever after with his new girlfriend. Always smiling in their pictures together. So to sit there and write me what really did appear as either a suicide or farewell note, was actually more insulting than anything. So I basically told him that but I also told him that if it was indeed true that he felt this horrible, then I'm not suprised. I am a strong believer in karma and you get what you put it in out of life and when you treat people, those that love you, like they are nothing, then eventually it come back to you. And just as I suspected all along, a person like that must not have many good nights. The guilt must consume them night after night. The fact that he emailed at 1:44am, really proves to me that this is true. I ended my response by telling him to get a vasectomy and stop ruining more people's lives.
Of course, he didn't like my response and told me how he wasn't looking for pity from me...so maybe someone can answer this for me. Then what the hell was he looking for if it wasn't pity? Why sit there and tell me how you screw everything up, its your daughter's birthday, life sucks, I want to die, blah, blah, blah and then tell you don't need my pity? What do you need then? Forgiveness? For me to say its ok that you haven't called your son since May of last year, even when you knew he was having major surgery? I'm sorry, maybe a year ago, but now I don't have to forgive and I don't have to put up with it. I did tell him that while I wanted nothing more than for my son to have his father around, he is better off without him and he did us both a favor when he left the country.
My response to his pity comment: learn how to handle the truth or face it and you'll be in a better place!
This may have just been the complete and utter last conversation with him but I feel good about it.
Here's to all the survivors who thought their heart would never mend!
In the email he goes on and on about how sorry he was for putting me through this and how he messes everything up, and how he is slowly killing himself drinking and doing drugs. He also said that all his kids hate him and don't want to see him (I wonder why). Oh and now its four kids, not the three, including my son, I knew about. And that I should do what I need regarding child support. He basically said goodbye to us as he ended it with tell my son I love him and I love you and your family too.
Now, excuse my french, but bullshit. You don't get yet another dramatic exit out this damn bitch anymore and so I called him out on it. You see, when I search his Facebook page to see if he is still where I think he is (for child support purposes which I don't get but am hoping that one day I will), he seems happiily ever after with his new girlfriend. Always smiling in their pictures together. So to sit there and write me what really did appear as either a suicide or farewell note, was actually more insulting than anything. So I basically told him that but I also told him that if it was indeed true that he felt this horrible, then I'm not suprised. I am a strong believer in karma and you get what you put it in out of life and when you treat people, those that love you, like they are nothing, then eventually it come back to you. And just as I suspected all along, a person like that must not have many good nights. The guilt must consume them night after night. The fact that he emailed at 1:44am, really proves to me that this is true. I ended my response by telling him to get a vasectomy and stop ruining more people's lives.
Of course, he didn't like my response and told me how he wasn't looking for pity from me...so maybe someone can answer this for me. Then what the hell was he looking for if it wasn't pity? Why sit there and tell me how you screw everything up, its your daughter's birthday, life sucks, I want to die, blah, blah, blah and then tell you don't need my pity? What do you need then? Forgiveness? For me to say its ok that you haven't called your son since May of last year, even when you knew he was having major surgery? I'm sorry, maybe a year ago, but now I don't have to forgive and I don't have to put up with it. I did tell him that while I wanted nothing more than for my son to have his father around, he is better off without him and he did us both a favor when he left the country.
My response to his pity comment: learn how to handle the truth or face it and you'll be in a better place!
This may have just been the complete and utter last conversation with him but I feel good about it.
Here's to all the survivors who thought their heart would never mend!
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