It has been a long time since I put my thoughts into this blog but today, the need was great! I've gone through many changes physically and emotionally but at the end of the day, nothing has really changed.
I lost over 80lbs...woohoo! Yes, I did and a year later, I still have managed to stay slim and according to some, maybe too slim. I bought a condo! Another victory although right now it doesn't seem like one. I want so bad to do right by my little man who is FIVE now, but I tell you, sometimes it is like swimming against the current.
The devil, well let's see, is still out the picture, completely gone.... In fact, he is engaged. Good for him but the fact that he has essentially went on without a thought in his little brain about my child, boggles me. How can he not miss this little cutie who happens to look just like him? And support, what support? I struggle each day to make sure my son is fed and has a house over his head. I work full-time and go to school to better myself for him...but it just seems like it is never enough. I'm always behind with some bill and/or something comes up. While he strolls the world, yes the world because he fled the country when he was ordered to pay child support, with his teenage fiancé.
In the meantime, my son and I have had to deal with disruptive behavior like hitting, kicking, and biting (yes, it has resurfaced except this time, it is all towards me).
I can go on and on but I won't because I also know that God sees all. And all the struggles that my son and I have had while the devil parlays will soon be over. Eventually, the law will catch up with him, even if that means going to law school myself...Did I mention, I'm studying for my LSAT?
I lost over 80lbs...woohoo! Yes, I did and a year later, I still have managed to stay slim and according to some, maybe too slim. I bought a condo! Another victory although right now it doesn't seem like one. I want so bad to do right by my little man who is FIVE now, but I tell you, sometimes it is like swimming against the current.
The devil, well let's see, is still out the picture, completely gone.... In fact, he is engaged. Good for him but the fact that he has essentially went on without a thought in his little brain about my child, boggles me. How can he not miss this little cutie who happens to look just like him? And support, what support? I struggle each day to make sure my son is fed and has a house over his head. I work full-time and go to school to better myself for him...but it just seems like it is never enough. I'm always behind with some bill and/or something comes up. While he strolls the world, yes the world because he fled the country when he was ordered to pay child support, with his teenage fiancé.
In the meantime, my son and I have had to deal with disruptive behavior like hitting, kicking, and biting (yes, it has resurfaced except this time, it is all towards me).
I can go on and on but I won't because I also know that God sees all. And all the struggles that my son and I have had while the devil parlays will soon be over. Eventually, the law will catch up with him, even if that means going to law school myself...Did I mention, I'm studying for my LSAT?
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